Waiting with Grace

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Patience is not my superpower. When I take action on something finish a task, send an email, or move a project forward I feel that rush of accomplishment. Done. Check. mark. Progress. But then… the waiting begins. And suddenly, my calm, capable self starts unraveling. Why hasn’t this person responded? Do they not care? Should I just do it myself? My inner monologue turns into a frantic courtroom drama where I’m both the accuser and the defendant. And after days sometimes weeks of simmering then, like clockwork just as I’m drafting my third “gentle reminder” the universe laughs. A response appears. The task gets done. The world keeps spinning. Without my micromanagement. Every. Single. Time.

It’s humbling, hilarious, and a little infuriating. But here’s what I’m learning: My frustration isn’t really about the other person’s timeline. It’s about my relationship with control. I crave momentum, certainty, and closure all noble things! But life doesn't operate on my stopwatch. And the truth is, my outbursts or anxious nudges don’t actually speed things up; they just drain my energy. So, I’m practicing something radical: Trusting the process. Not in a passive way, but in a deliberate, deep-breath kind of way. I remind myself that first of all most delays aren’t personal as people have their own priorities, capacities, and chaos, secondly, my urgency isn’t theirs and that’s okay and lastly things do get resolved just rarely on the timeline my impatient heart prefers.

The irony? The more I loosen my grip, the lighter I feel. I’m learning to celebrate my own efficiency without demanding it from others. Progress isn’t just about crossing finish lines; it’s about not letting the waiting turn me into someone I don’t recognize. That space between sent and reply is not a void it’s an invitation to breathe, too redirect my energy and to remember that I’m not the conductor of the universe’s orchestra.

So here’s to waiting with a little more grace, a little less angst, and maybe just maybe fewer imaginary arguments with people who are probably just busy living their lives.

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